its DISGUSTING, i HATE it...
i hope i dont offend any of you that have bulimia, the only times ive purged is when i have been forced/pressured by my family to eat...so those times that i did i turned to mia for support...i never gained but i also HATED it.
right now, as i sit in my living room im thinking about the carton of fattening ice cream in the fridge..its staring me down, challenging me, i wont touch it even though i can get it down and up in less than 20 minutes, how sick is that? no, I WILL NOT do it, I WILL NOT be responsible for the "missing" ice cream carton, i just know my family will notice and i NEED to pull off this vegan thing...i may be vegetarian/somewhat vegan for ethical purposes but it would be a HUGE lie to say that those decisions aren't influenced by ana.
anyhow, i can totally tell im losing, more than i estimated even, & im still eating 1200 calories a day, my guess is that im at 95-98 but my weight scale is retarded and tells me a new number every time i step on..WORST pet peeve.
well i got to go study, good luck to all of you girls this week:)
-chloe
About Me
- Chloe Madison
- Texas, United States
- I used to love shopping. I used to love music. I used to love me. Now I drift somewhere in between. I'm probably bi-polar. I'm a perfectionist. I have all A's I attend a dual enrollment high school where basically all my classes are at a community college. my ED had made me dislike people.(not everyone, mostly people at school) I hate swearing, I try avoiding it. I pray to God everyday. I still plead that someday I'll wake up and not have an ED. My worst nightmare is waking up one morning and being the old, fat me. My ED makes me feel selfish and superficial... but I can't help it, my ED is ME. Any questions? just askk:)
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